Thursday, January 23, 2020

Quality of Life

My much loved brother-in-law, Wayne, finally passed away peacefully in his sleep.  He had suffered a stroke about 1 1/2 years ago and remained bedridden and helpless all of that time...no way to live.  I'm so glad he has finally been set free because I know he would never have wanted to spend his remaining days in that condition and neither would most of us.  My children know my wishes...I don't want to suffer like Wayne did and I hope they'll be able to see that I don't.  Shelley jokes that they're all waiting to pull the plug on me.

I'm not religious but true to form I do have my own personal belief that there is some sort of existence after death.  Logic dictates that this magical life force can't only last a few short years.  I also experienced the wonder of Dennis' spirit freeing itself from his body when he passed away but that was just confirmation of something I've always believed.

And so I believe our Wayne, always so much fun and so alive in spirit, is somewhere right now laughing and enjoying his new freedom from a body that had stopped serving him.  He's probably singing some old country song and sidling up to a pretty young lady spirit and hoping everything works like it did on earth.

Love you and miss you, my brother. 


Friday, January 17, 2020

The Haves and the Have Nots

I'm an avid people watcher and have learned some amazing things about people in my lifetime just by watching the people, even strangers, around me.  I know I'm one of the "haves" in life because of my family and friends but I also know there is another side, another class of people in this world that aren't fortunate to have good family and friends around them.

The other day, Faye and I were out shopping and I had reached my limit of strength but still wanted a few things from the grocery store.  Dear Faye, 84 years old and one of the best friends anyone could hope for, went into the grocery store by herself to purchase what I needed.  As I sat in the car, exhausted and very thankful for Faye, a battered and rusty old van pulled up and parked in the handicapped spot facing me.  I watched as an elderly man who appeared to be in his 80's slowly exited the vehicle.  He wore loose clothing on a terribly emaciated body and from under the clothing hung various bags and tubes which indicated he had recently gone through some invasive surgery.  He very slowly made his way into the store to do his grocery shopping.  This man should never have had to do this on his own.  Where were his family or friends to help him in his time of need?

No, we are not all lucky to have people who love us and care for us.  But, if we do, we should be ever grateful for our lot in life even if the sun doesn't always shine on our little world.  To be blessed with good family and good friends is invaluable. 

Tuesday, January 14, 2020

Pneumonia

Kellie drove me down to Florida and I stayed at Shelley's for a few days...worrying a little that the long trip might have given me a cold but it didn't.  I had a lovely time at Shelley's with her, John, Jake, Matt, and Kellie until Jan. 2nd when I went over to the park.  As usual, there were many hugs and kisses from my friends there and darned if one of them didn't give me a cold...no more hugs and kisses for me, only fist bumps from now on.  The worst part was that the cold quickly turned into pneumonia and I was so sick I had to go back to Shelley's house where she nursed me back to health somewhat.  The weakness from pneumonia will last a long time, though.

Shelley and John drove me and Faye back to the park and our beautiful rentals on Sunday, picked up some groceries for us and another drug for me and then visited for a while.  Nicole and Sam came over, too.  It is a special blessing in life to have family to take care of you when you can't take care of yourself.

I've come to the conclusion that it's time for me to stay home for the winter but Shelley thinks I should wait until I feel better before making that decision.  I don't think I'll change my ind, though, because it's very frightening for me to be so sick and away from home.

My laundry is done and I made a nice soup in the crockpot yesterday.  My appetite is almost non-existent, more so since being sick, so I have to force feed myself.  I wish I'd had this problem when I was in my thirties!  My weakness is partly due to my diet so I know I have to eat a certain amount...I'm concentrating on more beef in my diet.

Today Faye and I are going for pedicures, a necessity because I have a chip out of my big toenail that keeps catching on things and the nail polish is also chipped and looks awful.  I've almost taken care of the few things that absolutely need to be done so, after the pedicure, it will be all for fun for the next 2 1/2 months.