Friday, November 30, 2018

Just a Thought

What did we do before Facebook?  It's a big part of my morning routine and I find it fascinating.  I can catch up with what the people I know are doing and thinking and I can read the jokes from the fun people I know.  It's an easy way of keeping in contact with the world outside my home and I enjoy it.

One of the jokes I posted this morning said something about me getting older but can't be shut up and I like and agree with that.  I think we all should speak up when we see or hear something that needs attention.  Anyway, I added that the reason I speak up is because I care and that's the truth.  I want a better world for myself but I also want it for everyone else.  Somehow, we've got to reduce the evil in this world because hatred for one thing or another has gotten out of hand.  

I do speak up a lot but I also try hard to exercise tact.  I often fail but I do try.  My opinion matters little to anyone else so I have to practice more humility when I do speak up.  Maybe having some inner dialogue with myself about what I can actually accomplish by speaking up will shut me up.  I like that last sentence.


Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Memories

The older you get, the more memories you accumulate and there's no question many of those memories will be bad ones.  I remember when the bad ones took up too much space in my mind and it really did affect my emotions.  I gradually learned to re-evaluate some of the bad memories and gather them in the part of my memory slotted for bad stuff I could deal with.  It helped.

I still tend to dredge up the bad stuff but it doesn't hurt like it used to so I guess we can get past it in time.  My better memories center around my children, grandchildren, and greatgrandchildren.  

You can analyze the bad stuff until you're blue in the face but you probably will never be able to understand the logic for it. So let it go if you can and when you can.  It's too heavy to carry around all of your life. 

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Cindy's 59th Birthday

I wrote a long time ago how, when I was pregnant with Cindy, I worried terribly that a mother couldn't love another child as much as she loved the one she had.  I was so wrong.  We are gifted with infinite love and the love you have for one child has nothing at all to do with the love you feel for another.  It's one of the miracles of motherhood.

I was huge bellied in all my pregnancies and #2 was just as uncomfortable in the final months so I was more than ready to give birth that November day.  I remember, in the evening, just standing up from the sofa when my water broke...that hadn't happened with Kim until I was in the hospital.  The contractions started immediately after that so we somehow got my mother to the apartment to take care of Kim before heading to the hospital.

This birth was different in many ways than my first.  It was much more painful for some reason...I found out later it was because the cord was wrapped around Cindy's neck so she couldn't drop down normally.  I also didn't know that both of our lives were in danger because of it.

In those days, husbands were not allowed to stay with you so a woman giving birth was essentially left alone only to be checked on occasionally by the nurses.  Doctors appeared only at the final birthing.  I was in terrible pain, something like being in the final stages of labor but having it last for hours because of the cord holding Cindy back.

At 12:50 A.M., Friday (all my babies were born on a Friday, by the way) November 27th, 1959, my beautiful baby girl was born.  She was a healthy 9 lbs., 7 1/2 oz., just 1/2 an ounce less than Kim had been.  Large babies are a sign that the mother will sooner or later become diabetic and that turned out to be true.

So there we were.  Dennis was 22 and I was 19 and we were the proud and very loving parents of 2 little girls.  How they survived is anyone's guess but we did our best.  Cindy was feisty from the start, very tiny boned and took a while to start gaining weight even with a high birth weight.  

It's always amazed me how 2 children can be so different but Kim's and Cindy's personalities were nothing alike except where it matters most.  They both have huge and loving hearts and are honest as the day is long.  The differences just make them more interesting!

Happy Birthday to my precious Cindy!!  

Monday, November 26, 2018

Special Events in November

November is a good month for our family.  Jake's 20th birthday was on the 7th, Matt's 32nd birthday was on the 25th, Cindy's 59th birthday will be on the 27th, and what would have been my 61st anniversary is on the 30th.  All of this sort of makes me feel old...but just the numbers!

And now the Canadian November weather!  It isn't the cold that gets me down but the grey days that seem to fill this month.  I've gotten by okay just being happy to be home but today is one more miserably, grey, rainy day and I'm getting fed up.  Driving down to Florida after Christmas is starting to look better and better!

I'm taking Cindy and Don out to dinner tonight for Cindy's birthday and I'm looking forward to that.  Of course, I always look forward to dinner out but especially with my babies.  And, yes, Cindy is still and always be my baby.

Kim had a little birthday party for Matt last night and served the best lasagna I've ever tasted.  It amazes me what great cooks my girls turned out to be considering the mother they have.  I hadn't seen Nolan and Nash in a little while and I can't believe how tall they're getting...it's probably only been a month but they are growing like weeds.

It was a shock to hear that Nash has been misbehaving so badly at school that he's been put on Ritalin.  I hate the very thought of a child being put on a drug because they are acting like brats.  I know Nash and he is a normally good little boy so something must be going on to make him act badly.  We think it might be his way of getting attention and it's a bloody shame to put a child on Ritalin because they have a temporary problem.  Poor Nick just doesn't know how to handle this and is relying on the professionals but the doctor who prescribed the Ritalin apparently saw Nash for about half an hour.  It's just awful!!

My version of Nash...a sweet and gentle little boy, very loving and quiet spoken and almost never demanding attention.  How can this child ever be diagnosed with ADHD??  I can't stand it. 

Friday, November 23, 2018

I've Been Thinking

It's easy to find fault with the U.S. government and sometimes I forget that they have legitimate worries about illegal immigrants because I sympathize with them.  I had commented on my friend, Arlean's, post saying none of the "caravan" people would storm the border and therefore the troops sent by Trump were unnecessary.  Unfortunately, I forgot that not all of those desperate people will bother coming through the border crossings and searched and verified by U.S. border guards.  Many will cross illegally between border entries and those are the ones we should worry about.

It's also easy for us in Canada to sit in judgement when we're too far north to worry about our borders being stormed by illegal immigrants.  It is a far different story to have undocumented immigrants arrive at established and guarded border crossings than to have hordes of unknowns stream across inbetween those legal entries.

I think my opinions have been clouded by my dislike for Trump and all he stands for.  If Trump approves it, it must be bad!  I sometimes forget the reality of the situation.

No, I would be horrified if unknown immigrants by the thousands ran across our borders illegally.  I would be horrified at the cost to the tax payers of Canada and I would be very worried how many would be criminals or terrorists.  

There are many sides to every story.

Thursday, November 22, 2018

Root Canal Appointment #3

Having a root canal is not painful but it is time consuming.  There are many parts to the whole procedure and that's probably why it's so expensive, too.  Today was my third appointment and I'd been warned it would take about 1 1/2 hours.  I thought all of that time would require me to have my mouth wide open but only most of it did.  There were quite a few impressions taken for the new crown and that meant having guck placed around the tooth and the teeth that were around it.  I worried about gagging but the guck was only placed around the teeth.

I like my dentist.  He knows what he's doing, does it gently, and explains as he goes.  His office is clean, state of the art, and he employs people just like him.  I feel lucky to have him for my dentist.

I'd prepared myself for what I thought of as a marathon and never allowed myself to feel dread.  That helped a lot.  It also helped to know that, no matter how long it all took, it wouldn't hurt.  When all was done, it was a relief, though, and I knew that the final appointment in a couple of weeks won't take long at all...just 1/2 hour to cement in the new crown.

It's been stressful, cost and appointments, but it was something that had to be done.  I'm very lucky to still have almost all my own teeth with only a few extractions years ago so I want to take care of them.

I've had my nap but I'm still tired so maybe all of this is more stressful than I thought.  It will pass.

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

Something is Wrong

I have a daily routine and my computer or server is interfering with that today.  I like to make my coffee, go on to Facebook and catch up with my friends, post some flower photos, etc., and then play some games.  So far, the only thing I can get into is the blog and I'm hoping that, after writing, I will be able to post it.

I can't remember if I've always had a morning routine but I do know that it usually begins with a pee and then coffee.  All is fine in those areas.  I can remember some routines...like making lists of what I wanted to accomplish that day (never actually accomplishing them)...that I haven't bothered with in years.  That's probably because we have a lot more time to do whatever we want now that kids are grown and the workplace is only at home.

Of course, as soon as the computer acts weird, we worry that we need a new one instead of calming down and blaming it on a server glitch.  Faye has a little ipad she's been using for about 5 years that works about as well as my $1,000 laptop so I've already decided to go that route instead of another laptop.  It would be easier to travel with, too.

Well, my inner need for routine is calling so I'd better check again if I can get on Facebook and do my stuff.


Monday, November 19, 2018

Looking Forward to Florida

I really am happy to be home a little longer this year but I also miss my 3W friends a lot so it will be nice to get back to the park for 3 months.  Facebook has been a great help in keeping me informed of what they've been doing all summer but there's nothing like face to face interaction.

Even though I'm selling the trailer this winter, I've been going back and forth in my mind about renting one of the new trailers for next winter.  Faye seems willing to share the cost with me and that is how I'll make up my mind.  It's expensive as heck to rent them but they're gorgeous and have 2 bedrooms, washer, and dryer.  I'll put my name on the list to rent one when I get to Florida.

Yes, it's really nice to be home but the lifestyle at the park is very enticing.  Not only is the weather nice but the friends I've accumulated over the years are wonderful people.  I will miss them the most when I actually am unable to winter at the park.  I've had a 20 year run and know how fortunate I am.

Today the sun is shining even though it's fairly cold and I'm going to do a bit of grocery shopping and look for a birthday present for Cindy.  I've only been home once in the past 20 years to celebrate her birthday.  Cindy's is on Nov. 27th and Matt's is on Nov. 25th so I've missed a lot of birthday cake!

I watched an interesting but disturbing documentary on T.V. yesterday.  It was about a male body builder (built like a brick s-it house) who is transitioning to a female.  At the time of filming, he was on hormones and had extensive facial and throat surgery to appear and sound more feminine.  All I could think of was that, no matter how much pain, danger, and expense he goes through, he will never be a real female.  It's incredibly sad to watch something like this.  I try very hard to understand but I don't.  I think I'll always believe it is a mental illness almost all of the time.  There are legitimate cases of people born with both sex organs or who were misdiagnosed at birth but they are a completely different story.

I watched another documentary about the chaos in the Philippines.  I had no idea their president was a ruthless dictator...too much time watching news about Trump.  It was frightening to hear how one bad leader can gain so much control over their people.  It's a horrible situation.

I'm beginning to think I've developed so many irrational fears because of these documentaries I watch.  There are an amazing amount of things in our world causing us to be fearful.  When we hear a story about someone who is kind and loving, we cling to the hope that the majority of human beings are good.  It's getting harder to do that, though.  One of the news channels used to dedicate part of their program to good news only.  I wish they still did that because we're becoming overwhelmed with all the horrors that mankind can create.  At least I am. 

  

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Tired

I'm always tired after a craft sale because there is a lot of lugging stuff in and out but yesterday I was tired and body sore.  Cindy came to help me because Kim had to work and having someone with me makes it all tolerable.  I do love the interaction with people and will keep doing this one sale for as long as I can.

After the sale (I made $205 after costs) we went to Costco to buy me a winter jacket.  If I'm going to be staying home for the winters I need something really warm.  We had something to eat and then headed home.  I slept for an hour or so but couldn't stop the body hurt until this morning.  It seems to take longer and longer to get over any body aches I develop...this one was probably from the slight bending over the tables as I was setting up.  It's that slight bending that bothers me even though I don't have back problems.  It usually goes away in a few hours but this one lasted all night.  Could be age.  LOL!

I sold quite a bit of the jewelry but I'm so bored with it now that I sent Cindy home with all the cheaper stuff to give away to the girls.  Since I only sold 1 table runner it got me a bit worried about just selling them next year so I kept the better necklaces because they sold very well.  I have enough of them to last a couple of craft shows, anyway.

I am definitely not doing anything today but vegetating.

Friday, November 16, 2018

Cold, Grey, November Morning

This is the view from my patio door this morning and, normally, it would depress me terribly.  But not now.  We've had a lot of dull, grey days this month and I'm just happy to be home.  My apartment is nice and warm and I have my Swedish weaving on the go all the time.

The second and last craft show is tomorrow and Cindy will be helping me out instead of Kim because Kim has to work.  I got to wondering how it was that Kim is the one who always helps me at these shows when she doesn't like selling and doesn't like chatting with strangers.  Cindy loves both of these things.

I've discounted all of the jewelry I have left because I'm tired of selling it and just want to concentrate on selling the Swedish weaving from now on.  I haven't bought any new jewelry in a couple of years so I'm selling old inventory.  I also only want to do this one craft show each year from now on.  It's fun for me but probably a burden for my daughters.

Yesterday I arranged for the cable service and the power to be turned on at the trailer and I'm waiting to hear back from the people who will clean the trailer.  Kellie wants to leave here on Dec 29th instead of the 30th so we just have to wait to see what the driving weather will be.  As long as we have no snow the first day, we will be okay.  The second day we'll be at Shelley's in Tampa.

Today is a "do nothing" day for me and I'll just do a bit of Swedish weaving...nothing for tomorrow's craft show, though.  Oh yes, Cindy brought home the red monk's cloth from Florida and I was shocked to see there was only 1 YARD instead of the 1 bolt of 10 yards.  Shelley had been charged for the whole bolt!  One good thing is that it was ordered from Ebay and an honest mistake on the seller's part so I'm not worried about them sending out the missing 9 yards.

Cindy visited me yesterday on her lunch break.  My daughters are the biggest blessing in my life and my heart hurts for parents of uncaring and inattentive children.  My grandchildren are good to their parents, too, so we've taught them all decent values.  

Cindy gave me some good news about our Kyle.  He has a nice girlfriend.  His choices haven't been so great in the past but this one sounds like a keeper.  Shelley told me that Jake has a nice girlfriend, too.  It makes me happy to see my progeny happy.

Well, I could do a bit of housework but maybe not.  A little T.V., a little Swedish weaving, and probably a nap later on sounds like a better plan for the day.

Thursday, November 15, 2018

Just When You Think

Just when I think I've got this root canal kicked, I find out that the next appointment will be 1 1/2 hours long.  I'd forgotten about that.

Just when I think I'm one lucky Swedish weaver to have managed to obtain 10 yards of red monk's cloth, I find out that it's a tiny piece that arrived...haven't seen it yet but that's how Cindy described it.

Just when I think my doctor's appointments are over, the dermatologist found a suspicious spot, sprayed it, but wants to see me again next month.

It seems there's no sense in planning ahead for anything at all.

Sunday, November 11, 2018

Lucky, or What?

A few times a year I spend a couple of days with Mary and Faye at the casino and it's always fun but often expensive for me.  I accept that I'm mostly a loser but it's entertainment and I don't smoke and rarely drink...that's my excuse for gambling.

Well, Thursday was day 1 and it didn't go all that well as I gradually lost most of the money I'd brought.  This is such a bad sign because we had 1 1/2 days to go.  I sat at an unfamiliar slot machine with unfamiliar buttons and apparently tapped the wrong ones.  The good news is that I immediately got a bonus that just kept on giving but I couldn't understand why it was giving so much money until I looked at what I bet...it wasn't the usual 50 cents but a whopping $3.40!  I would have been pretty mad if I hadn't gotten the bonus right away but this was one lucky coincidence!  I ended up winning all my lost money back plus more!

Of course, I didn't stop gambling.  Over the next 1 1/2 days I managed to lose most of my money once again.  But we had fun!


Wednesday, November 07, 2018

Election Is Over

Regardless of who won or lost, the election is over and maybe we can get back to being civil to each other.  In the end, we, the people, are not to be defined solely by the political party we support but by the fact that we are all human beings.  Let's have a little brotherly/sisterly love!

Monday, November 05, 2018

Shameful

Since Trump became president of the U.S. it's been one shocker after another until nothing much shocks us any more.  The whole damned world sits in wonder at what the hell has happened to the U.S. and that they've become a country to be feared instead of admired.  This has all happened in less than 2 years under the power and influence of one very dangerous president.  So, can we really blame the president for all of it or does the blame fall squarely on the shoulders of the people who follow him?  Whichever, the image of the United States has been sullied and that will follow it for many years to come.

Today I see that some of the crazier citizens have packed up their guns and headed to the California/Mexico border to keep what they believe to be invading hordes of South Americans from pushing their way across the border.  They've been driven to believe their own military is incapable of protecting their borders and that the so-called invaders...desperate men, women, and children...will storm the border and take over the U.S.  Their very own president has drilled this into their gullible little heads.  Innocent people are going to be killed if this craziness isn't stopped.

I'm beyond understanding how so much hatred has been generated in such a short period of time in the U.S. and my conclusion is that we are all...every country...only one evil leader away from behaving exactly the way the Americans are.  This usually hidden hatred for their fellow man does not lie just in the U.S. but in all of us and that makes me absolutely miserable. 


Sunday, November 04, 2018

Why Are They Shocked?

Someone posted a political photo of a bunch of naked women covering their crotch with their hands and are expressing shock that women would do this.  Where was this shock and disgust when their president was filmed saying he liked to grab women by the pussies because he could???

Politics have always been dirty but they have sunk to a deep, deep low in the United States with Trump's presidency.  I don't think I've ever seen that country so divided as I do now with Republicans and Democrats despising each other.  What does this mean for their future?

My dear friend, Arlean, is a staunch Republican and also a wonderful human being.  She has promised to have a private talk with me about American politics when I get to Florida...I know she'll be able to state her case politely.  I don't usually talk politics at the park because I'm a visitor in that country and I know my place but, if there ever was a chance to try to understand why good and decent people like Arlean support Trump, this will be it.  Americans like to tell me that we Canadians have our own problems with Trudeau and I agree.  I believe Trudeau is destroying Canada just as much as Trump is destroying the States.  North America is in a sad state of affairs right now.

I think I use common sense when evaluating a politician.  They didn't get there by telling the truth and they don't remain in office without stealing from the public.  Just my opinion!



Saturday, November 03, 2018

Politicians at their Worst

They deserve what they vote for.  With every election the candidates will smear their opponents at every chance and some citizens feed on that, especially if the one being smeared isn't their choice to begin with.  The drama created by dredging up dirt blinds the voters to the fact that the dirt slinger either isn't telling you how he/she will make your world better or they're promising the moon and keeping none of the promises once elected.

Citizens jump on these band wagons, ignoring every bad signal from their party of choice and believing every bad word said about the party they've come to hate.  These same citizens go to church on Sunday and promise to love their neighbor but they don't.  Not if they belong to a different political party, have a different skin color, were born in a different country, or fellow a different religion.  These citizens pray to a merciful god and then trash their fellow man.  

They watch their politician of choice curse, philander, torment, lie, and steal...and they praise him/her as their savior.  There are few depths their politician of choice can sink to that makes them unworthy in the eyes of the people who voted for them.

It's interesting to note, though, that every once in a while, a politician begins to think they're invincible and they take that one step too far and their fans drop them like a hot turd.

There are a few hot and stinky turds that should be dropped soon.  It's only a matter of time.      

Thursday, November 01, 2018

Root Canal

I've had a root canal before so I knew it wasn't a really dreadful experience except to the bank account.  I happen to have a nice dentist who is very good at his job.  His office is also squeaky clean and pleasant to visit when I have to go there.

It took about an hour while I patiently listened to drilling in my mouth but, thankfully, with no pain.  There was no pain when the freezing wore off, either.  This was only part one of the whole procedure, the next is in 12 days and it will be to install the post that will hold the crown.  Part 3 is 10 days later and then I should be finished.

I know I'm lucky at my age to have my own teeth and not need dentures so I'm not going to squawk too much about dental services that I require.  My teeth have always been pretty strong and only needed a few fillings over the years.  I didn't actually start taking care of my teeth until I was in my 30's because we couldn't afford regular dental check-ups so I'm lucky my teeth withstood the neglect.

Tomorrow I have an appointment to see the doctor who did the colonoscopy but I already know the results so I'm not sure why I'm going there.  My guess is that she'll suggest I have another colonoscopy in a couple of years even though this last one was clear.  Doctors love to have you keep them busy.

2 more regular check-ups with family doctor and dermatologist and I should be set free...except for the dentist installing the crown.  I always worry that something unexpected will come up at these regular check-ups to make me have to go back!

I'm not complaining too much.  Canadians have a lot to be thankful for with our government health insurance.  Now, if only they covered dental and eye glasses.  I'm still thankful for what is covered, though!