i've noticed how harshly i internally berate myself when i do even the slightest thing wrong and i wonder if all of us do that. my favorite thing to say is "you stupid idiot person" and i don't think i've ever said that to anyone else when they goofed.
we've been looking at some old photos lately and we ladies were all slim and cute but i, for one, thought at the time that i was chubby and plain. i seem to remember a war in my head whenever i was all dressed up for a special occasion that, even though some parts looked okay, others weren't up to par. too critical, for sure.
i don't know if i've gotten less critical of myself as i've aged but i have become more nonchalant, doing the best i can with an imperfect package and not giving a hoot if someone finds fault with it. that's a sort of progress, don't you think? on the other hand, i just might have become more critical of my mistakes because now there's the added fear of not stupidity but senility causing them.
oh well, we are what we are so we just might as well learn to be a little kinder to ourselves.
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