Anger and Depression

Something that continues to surprise and confound me is how much the anger inside me has almost disappeared.  Back in the depression days, I seemed to be angry all the time or else it simmered just under the surface of my emotions.  It was probably frustration that my circumstances were beyond my control or understanding but no-one is ever in complete control of these things so, who knows why I was so angry.



Any way, I'm seemingly at peace with my life these days and maybe that's why I'm not an angry lady.  Each of my days begin with quiet and are stress free for the most part but I had no hand in making it this way...it's just evolved.  Even with the mess on my face I don't feel too much apprehension or stress, just a little concern that the end result won't be as good as I hope.



So, how do we become at peace?  I believe it's filling our hours and moments with as much happiness as we can create.  If we choose to set any problems far aside and deal with them in small increments, then we have more time to lessen our stress and to promote happiness and peace in our lives.  Maybe I didn't have the tools to do this in my earlier life but counseling provided me with the tools to use as I was able.  Time has sharpened my skills in this area and it's easier to let the "small" things slide away into nothingness instead of dwelling on them and making them into an open sore.  Oh, how I wish I'd learned these skills many moons ago!



Of course, I still get angry about the injustices in this world and can get manic when it comes to anyone doing harm to a child but those angers are relatively short lived and don't consume me.  Anger solves nothing.  It only makes our lives miserable unless we're able to get beyond the moment and, either do something about it or accept the inevibility of whatever disturbs us.  No-one's life is perfect.



Instead of wasting precious moments on what is wrong in my life, I choose to gather in the good times.  I choose to accept my place in time and let unrealistic dreams remain as dreams and not regrets.  We can choose to let anger and frustration drain away because this will allow peace to settle in.  It took me a very long time to learn this but better late than never.



Life is, or can be, good.